Stress and Telling Myself it is Okay…

18 Mar

By no means has this been an easy week. In fact, I feel very much like that girl up there, I just want to put my head in my hands and let everything go for a little while.  In truth, nothing is wrong. I’m reasonably healthy, work is going well, my relationship is wonderful.

Somehow, I am just not feeling it this week. I’ve been working hard, but it seems like everything is screaming at me to just stop. Typically, I can complete 7 to 8 articles in a work day, with ease. This week, I feel as if everything has taken twice as long.

I know my body is telling me I need a break. I need to unwind for a few days. I want to relax. I want to spend an afternoon running through a wildflower field.

All that bloom and color makes me feel like I deserve to unwind. I know that I do deserve, but I’m on this path to make my life better. To become more financially stable, to become healthier. Those goals make me feel like I have to push, push, push…all the time.

I feel guilty taking a day off. I feel guilty when my body tells me I need a break. I think it’s harder when you freelance. If you do not get your work done, you do not get paid. Sick days and vacation time is not built in. I am working on building up that fund.

In the meantime, I have to figure out what do when my body is screaming out at me for some downtime, but my mind wants to keep pushing.

How do you balance responsibility with downtime?


2 Responses to “Stress and Telling Myself it is Okay…”

  1. Emily Jane March 20, 2011 at 2:01 pm #

    I have a tough time with downtime too. I always feel guilty even on weekends if I’m not DOING something like housework or laundry etc. I know it’s necessary to take “me time”, but I have a really hard time doing it!

    • erinmakesitwork March 20, 2011 at 2:28 pm #

      It’s funny how we beat ourselves up over it all. I want to be happy, successful, a good wife, a good daughter, a good sister…eventually a good mother. I want to be the best writer I can be and continue to build my own business. Sometimes, it’s easy to get down. I’m slowly trying to learn that my body is telling me I need a break, and I’m more likely to succeed when I listen.

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